Reflecting on the Positives and the Negitives in Life

It is currently Tuesday, April 14, 8:32 PM. I’m sitting in my bed right now reflecting on these past four weeks of online school. Spring break has just started. Lately, I have been weighing the positive and negative things in my life. 

For example, some of the positive things are I will be able to get higher than a 4.0 GPA this semester. In my educational career, I have never been able to accomplish this goal and I am very excited about this chance. From the help of my teachers and my own drive and hard work, I have been able to accomplish this from the start of the spring semester through my 10-week quarter grades (before online school began.) 

I have also actually been getting a lot closer to my family. We have had cooking nights, movie times, and walks. Something that I have also learned is how to work out and get exercise. I feel working out and getting exercise is very important for all of us due to us sitting inside most of the day. 

However, there also been some negatives of being home for many weeks unable to leave. I really do miss my friends. Luckily, I am on FaceTime with them every single night. Something that really hit me the other day was when I found out that as of a few days ago if you are found on the streets of L.A. or in a grocery store without a mask on you will be fined with $1000. It is just crazy what this world has come to. Something that also struck me like a lightning bolt was that I was at Trader Joe’s almost 3 days ago and last night at that same Trader Joe’s an employee tested positive for the COVID-19 virus.

Currently, at this time in my life, I am keeping my head held high hoping that everyone is safe. I am trying new things out in my life and trying to become a better me. I am learning new things that I never knew I was capable of doing.

I would like to share this poem my mother read to me.

This poem was written in 1869 by Kathleen O’Mara.

It was reprinted during the 1919 Pandemic. It sounds just as relevant today.

And people stayed at home

And read books

And listened

And they rested

And did exercises

And made art and played

And learned new ways of being

And stopped and listened

More deeply

Someone meditated, someone prayed

Someone met their shadow

And people began to think differently

And people healed.

And in the absence of people who

Lived in ignorant ways

Dangerous, meaningless and heartless,

The earth also began to heal

And when the danger ended and

People found themselves

They grieved for the dead

And made new choices

And dreamed of new visions

And created new ways of living

And completely healed the earth

Just as they were healed.

Self- Conscious

What is being self-conscious? Feeling undo awareness of oneself, one’s appearance, or one’s actions.

I feel growing up every single teenager goes through being self-conscious. I’m in that stage, I’m 16 and I’m 100% self-conscious.  To be honest I hate being self-conscious. Every morning in the mirror, and look at myself and I point out all my flaws. I go to school knowing what I pointed out on my body in the mirror and it breaks my heart.  I go to the mall with friends and if I walk around and see people looking at me I hold my stomach in. Whenever someone is staring at me I automatically think they’re pointing out all the flaws on my body, but really it’s just my head getting to me. 

I wish I could be totally confident and say to myself my body is perfect, my legs are the perfect shape , I love my face, and my hair is gorgeous (which people tell me all the time and I don’t believe them.) I can’t say all these compliments to myself that because I’m a teenager and at times I disagree with it it. I’m currently learning how to love my body and love who I am.

One of my teachers told me the following: everyone is different, everyone has a different body, everyone eats different foods, everyone lives differently, everyone is unique. All human beings weren’t made out to be the same, if everyone was the same it would be completely boring. Everyone is their own person and unique in their own way. 

YOU, those reading my post, are unique and are beautiful in your own way! 

Quote of the day: 

You are worthy.

You are capable.

You are beautiful.

Book the ticket.

Write the book.

Create the dream.

Celebrate yourself.

Rule your Queendom!

Much love: Seriously Samantha <3

Friends... What are Friends?

Friends....What are friends? 
Friends don’t care if you’re being an ass, what you look like, what car you drive, if your family is crazy or not, if you’re rich or poor, or what you weigh. Your conversations will pick up where they left off, even if months have passed by. They will be there for you when you need them the most, and despite your faults, will love you with all their heart and cherish the times spent with you.

Fake friends.... What are fake friends? 
Fake friends can sit with you at lunch, they will talk to you, they’ll be around you with other friends. When it comes down to you struggling and you being in a stage where you need other people to help you, those fake friends will disappear. When you’re back in your happy moment, they will reappear. Those are fake friends. 

This past year has been one of the hardest years socially. I’ve realized who my fake friends are and who are my real friends. I sat with a new friend group this year. I thought that they would be fun and I thought they would bring me joy. Throughout my time sitting with them, I realized they never brought me joy. I was never happy around them at lunch. We never had any conversations, or they would have their own and leave me out. They would hang out and not invite me; group chats would be made and I wouldn’t be on them. When times of sadness came around, they seemed like they cared but they really didn’t and I felt it. 

Just this past week, I decided to sit with one of my other friends for lunch to see how it would go. Turns out I had a full conversation with a group of people I had not hung out with before. I laughed and I smiled, which seems like it’s been forever since I did at lunchtime. The next day I was actually looking forward to lunch, which I never usually did. This new group of people I sit with with bring me joy. I don’t know how they brought me joy so quickly, but they did.

This idea has been stuck in my mind for a long time and I want to share it with you. It’s much easier to not know things. Sometimes things change and friends leave. Life doesn’t stop for anybody. I want to laugh, maybe get mad, or even shrug at how strange everyone was around me, even at myself. Every person has to live for his or her own life and make the choice to share it with other people. You can’t just sit there and put everyone’s life ahead of yours, you just can’t. You have to do things for you.

I’m going to do what I want to do for myself. I’m going to be who I really am, and I’m going to figure out what that means to me. We can chose to feel bad and blame people for what they did or didn’t do, or what they didn’t know about how we felt inside. 

I guess there could always be someone to blame. Maybe it’s good to put things in perspective, but sometimes I think that the only perspective is to really be in the moment. It is OK to feel things. I was really there, and that was enough to make me feel infinite. I feel infinite.

Find the people in life that make you happy in high school. So many people think social status is the only thing that matters, but let me tell you, it isn’t. Hang out with people who you choose hang out with, people who make you happy and make you laugh. I thought I could only hang around people who are well-known in the school so I could be well-known myself. But in the end, I figured out that it doesn’t matter where they stand or were you stand in the world of social status, it matters if you’re happy and a good person. So find the people who make you happy!

Quote of the day:
Be with people who know your worth. You don’t need too many people in your life to be happy, just a few real ones who appreciate you for who you are! 

Much love: Seriously Samantha

My Opinion on Academics

This blog goes out to all the people who are struggling with academics right now and really don’t know which path to take. This is my story on academics! All of middle school I did pretty well with my academics I got onto the honor roll almost every single semester and every single year of middle school I did great, I miss middle school, I loved it so much! 

High school is 100% different. Last year when I was in ninth grade I did really really well I got onto the honor roll both semesters and I was really proud of myself but, I didn’t work really hard both semesters. I think I could’ve tried a lot harder.This current year at the beginning of the semester I thought that I could take 10th grade exactly the same way I tackled ninth-grade. I thought I wouldn’t have to study A great deal, and all I needed to do is complete my homework, let’s just say that didn’t work out.

 So far in my academic career ,10th grade has been one of the hardest years for me I thought 10th grade would be a breeze, turns out it is the hardest thing ever. I am up all night nonstop learning how to study for tests and doing homework, and yes sometimes I do procrastinate. If I could wish for one thing I would wish I would not procrastinate. If I had to give someone one piece of advice for 10th grade it would be get all your work done the night it is assigned, speak with all your teachers and make sure you’re on the right path to success. 

The first semester of ninth-grade was a little challenging for me because I didn’t understand what I was able to do and how to do it. This 2nd semester of 10th grade semester I finally understand what I need to do to be able to accomplish and get onto the honor roll. As much as there are other problems going on in my life, academics are always the number thing on my list. I still have a long time till college about two years and I know I’m only in 10th grade but I’ve learned a lot this year about learning the correct way to study. Even today I am still learning how I can study for tests and do certain homework assignments and I’ll be finding out the correct way to do these things for the rest of my life. All You need to do is try your hardest and make sure you’re taking the path you want to take.Where are you are right now, build a foundation for yourself so you can achieve your goals. Live life simply and don’t overthink it if you overthink too many things your life will be full of anxiety, and trust me that’s not mentally healthy. Learn new things each day and apply it to your goal. Take it day by day and step-by-step and then with the foundation you built you’ll be able to achieve whatever you put your mind to.

Quote of the day: Education is the most powerful weapon that you can use to change the world with!

Much love: seriously Samantha

Im Back!!

To be quite honest I don’t know how to start this blog let’s just start off by saying I’m back and I am planning to stay back. First off I started this blog around four years ago and it is now four years I am 16, I’m in 10th grade, and life is hittin me hard currently. I know it might be weird for you ,you’re probably wondering after four years she comes back what happened? There’s so much that is happened I don’t think I can explain it in one blog and that’s why I have so much more to come. My current goal is to tell every single lady and woman on this earth how powerful they are and that nothing can knock you down. I want to show people what life is really like and what high school is really like and what being a teenager girl is really like. I’m not gonna lie and say life is great and it’s amazing and everything is perfect, if it is then I’ll tell you that but on this blog everything that comes out of my mouth is 100% true. Hopefully I can get a lot more viewers to read my posts because my goal is to inspire every single teenager and woman in this world to believe in themselves and have self confidence . You thought it was the end but this is just the beginning welcome back! If you keep reading you’re in for a great adventure!

Quote of the day:  Today i close the door to the future, take a deep breath, step on through and start a new chapter in my life. This is the start of my new chapter!


 This was me in 2015 when i first started my blog!

                 

This is me currently in 2020!

I will be writing every day from now on so stay tuned! Much Love: Seriously Samantha

No Growth... Near the End?

As I drove to meet Samamtha, my husband, and our younger son at the Endocronologist’s office Inreceived a text from my husband:
“No Growth.”

When I walked into the patient room, Samantha raised her hands up with joy and smiled ear to ear.

I think we are towards the end of Samamtha’s HGH Tour.”

Sure, there have been some months where Samantha hasn’t grown as much as others; however she has NEVER had a 2-month span of no growth in 37 MONTHS.

At first, I was disappointed. Had she really completed growing? I then realized, she is 14 1/2 years old; I stopped growing at around the same age. The average age for girls to reach their adult height is 15 years old. Samamtha is just about there...

I then reminded myself where Samantha had started 3 years ago. A young lady entering 6th grade, Samantha began self-administering (by choice) daily injections at the age of 11. Month after month, her body changed in size. As her body grew muscle and bone at a rapid pace, she could not fit in her clothes from month to month. Her shoe size grew so quickly that I didn’t buy her more than 2 pairs of shoes at a time. How could I be disappointed, Samantha’s results were beyond my expectations, or were they? Many emotions flooded my mind within moments.

Samamtha, her father, and I gave Samantha a precious gift: UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
- We still do and always will.
- We watched Samantha take PRIDE in herself and become her own advocate.
- We witnessed Samantha grow in height and inner STRENGTH AND PERSEVERENCE..
- We all FOUGHT the good fight of NEVER GIVING UP. There have been times when Samantha has asked when we thought she would stop taking  her medication; however, she always knew taking on this challenge was a long road and she was an integral part of the decisions we made as a family each step of the way.

Is it really over? No one knows. Samantha will continue taking her medication for the next few months; however we all agree that by the end of 2018 she will have reached her final destination of this road.

 Samantha started this blog to raise awareness of GHD (growth hormone deficiency) so other children in a similar circumstance to her would not feel as if they were the only ones in the world struggling with the very same issues. As she has traveled through this journey, I hope she has helped others feel they aren’t walking in darkness as Samantha felt when she first began Growth Hormone Therapy.

Life is a journey, not a destination. There are many more roads to come for Miss Seriously Samantha.  She has made such an impact upon the lives of those she touches. I’m so excited to see what the future holds for her. I am eternally grateful for Samantha’s gifts she has given to our family.

My daughter has helped me become a better person. She has taught me lessons I never thought I would learn.

Writing again with upcoming updates

Thank you to everyone who has read Samantha’s blog. She is truly an inspiration in countess ways and she will be so happy to know she still has readers all over the world! Stay tuned for updates on:
-slowing down in growth
- puberty isn’t affected by HGH
- becoming tired of taking daily injections for years and how Samantha has been “powering through it!”
- body image and changes with HGH and the teen years (it’s not easy and Samantha has had the most positive attitude and better than I could have imagined!
- Samantha’s questions about stopping HGH and her decision to continue until she stops growing

AND

Before and current photos which are absolutely amazing!

Please post a comment or question; Samantha would love to hear from you!

Sincerely,
Seriously Samantha’s Mom