Friends... What are Friends?

Friends....What are friends? 
Friends don’t care if you’re being an ass, what you look like, what car you drive, if your family is crazy or not, if you’re rich or poor, or what you weigh. Your conversations will pick up where they left off, even if months have passed by. They will be there for you when you need them the most, and despite your faults, will love you with all their heart and cherish the times spent with you.

Fake friends.... What are fake friends? 
Fake friends can sit with you at lunch, they will talk to you, they’ll be around you with other friends. When it comes down to you struggling and you being in a stage where you need other people to help you, those fake friends will disappear. When you’re back in your happy moment, they will reappear. Those are fake friends. 

This past year has been one of the hardest years socially. I’ve realized who my fake friends are and who are my real friends. I sat with a new friend group this year. I thought that they would be fun and I thought they would bring me joy. Throughout my time sitting with them, I realized they never brought me joy. I was never happy around them at lunch. We never had any conversations, or they would have their own and leave me out. They would hang out and not invite me; group chats would be made and I wouldn’t be on them. When times of sadness came around, they seemed like they cared but they really didn’t and I felt it. 

Just this past week, I decided to sit with one of my other friends for lunch to see how it would go. Turns out I had a full conversation with a group of people I had not hung out with before. I laughed and I smiled, which seems like it’s been forever since I did at lunchtime. The next day I was actually looking forward to lunch, which I never usually did. This new group of people I sit with with bring me joy. I don’t know how they brought me joy so quickly, but they did.

This idea has been stuck in my mind for a long time and I want to share it with you. It’s much easier to not know things. Sometimes things change and friends leave. Life doesn’t stop for anybody. I want to laugh, maybe get mad, or even shrug at how strange everyone was around me, even at myself. Every person has to live for his or her own life and make the choice to share it with other people. You can’t just sit there and put everyone’s life ahead of yours, you just can’t. You have to do things for you.

I’m going to do what I want to do for myself. I’m going to be who I really am, and I’m going to figure out what that means to me. We can chose to feel bad and blame people for what they did or didn’t do, or what they didn’t know about how we felt inside. 

I guess there could always be someone to blame. Maybe it’s good to put things in perspective, but sometimes I think that the only perspective is to really be in the moment. It is OK to feel things. I was really there, and that was enough to make me feel infinite. I feel infinite.

Find the people in life that make you happy in high school. So many people think social status is the only thing that matters, but let me tell you, it isn’t. Hang out with people who you choose hang out with, people who make you happy and make you laugh. I thought I could only hang around people who are well-known in the school so I could be well-known myself. But in the end, I figured out that it doesn’t matter where they stand or were you stand in the world of social status, it matters if you’re happy and a good person. So find the people who make you happy!

Quote of the day:
Be with people who know your worth. You don’t need too many people in your life to be happy, just a few real ones who appreciate you for who you are! 

Much love: Seriously Samantha

My Opinion on Academics

This blog goes out to all the people who are struggling with academics right now and really don’t know which path to take. This is my story on academics! All of middle school I did pretty well with my academics I got onto the honor roll almost every single semester and every single year of middle school I did great, I miss middle school, I loved it so much! 

High school is 100% different. Last year when I was in ninth grade I did really really well I got onto the honor roll both semesters and I was really proud of myself but, I didn’t work really hard both semesters. I think I could’ve tried a lot harder.This current year at the beginning of the semester I thought that I could take 10th grade exactly the same way I tackled ninth-grade. I thought I wouldn’t have to study A great deal, and all I needed to do is complete my homework, let’s just say that didn’t work out.

 So far in my academic career ,10th grade has been one of the hardest years for me I thought 10th grade would be a breeze, turns out it is the hardest thing ever. I am up all night nonstop learning how to study for tests and doing homework, and yes sometimes I do procrastinate. If I could wish for one thing I would wish I would not procrastinate. If I had to give someone one piece of advice for 10th grade it would be get all your work done the night it is assigned, speak with all your teachers and make sure you’re on the right path to success. 

The first semester of ninth-grade was a little challenging for me because I didn’t understand what I was able to do and how to do it. This 2nd semester of 10th grade semester I finally understand what I need to do to be able to accomplish and get onto the honor roll. As much as there are other problems going on in my life, academics are always the number thing on my list. I still have a long time till college about two years and I know I’m only in 10th grade but I’ve learned a lot this year about learning the correct way to study. Even today I am still learning how I can study for tests and do certain homework assignments and I’ll be finding out the correct way to do these things for the rest of my life. All You need to do is try your hardest and make sure you’re taking the path you want to take.Where are you are right now, build a foundation for yourself so you can achieve your goals. Live life simply and don’t overthink it if you overthink too many things your life will be full of anxiety, and trust me that’s not mentally healthy. Learn new things each day and apply it to your goal. Take it day by day and step-by-step and then with the foundation you built you’ll be able to achieve whatever you put your mind to.

Quote of the day: Education is the most powerful weapon that you can use to change the world with!

Much love: seriously Samantha

Im Back!!

To be quite honest I don’t know how to start this blog let’s just start off by saying I’m back and I am planning to stay back. First off I started this blog around four years ago and it is now four years I am 16, I’m in 10th grade, and life is hittin me hard currently. I know it might be weird for you ,you’re probably wondering after four years she comes back what happened? There’s so much that is happened I don’t think I can explain it in one blog and that’s why I have so much more to come. My current goal is to tell every single lady and woman on this earth how powerful they are and that nothing can knock you down. I want to show people what life is really like and what high school is really like and what being a teenager girl is really like. I’m not gonna lie and say life is great and it’s amazing and everything is perfect, if it is then I’ll tell you that but on this blog everything that comes out of my mouth is 100% true. Hopefully I can get a lot more viewers to read my posts because my goal is to inspire every single teenager and woman in this world to believe in themselves and have self confidence . You thought it was the end but this is just the beginning welcome back! If you keep reading you’re in for a great adventure!

Quote of the day:  Today i close the door to the future, take a deep breath, step on through and start a new chapter in my life. This is the start of my new chapter!


 This was me in 2015 when i first started my blog!

                 

This is me currently in 2020!

I will be writing every day from now on so stay tuned! Much Love: Seriously Samantha

No Growth... Near the End?

As I drove to meet Samamtha, my husband, and our younger son at the Endocronologist’s office Inreceived a text from my husband:
“No Growth.”

When I walked into the patient room, Samantha raised her hands up with joy and smiled ear to ear.

I think we are towards the end of Samamtha’s HGH Tour.”

Sure, there have been some months where Samantha hasn’t grown as much as others; however she has NEVER had a 2-month span of no growth in 37 MONTHS.

At first, I was disappointed. Had she really completed growing? I then realized, she is 14 1/2 years old; I stopped growing at around the same age. The average age for girls to reach their adult height is 15 years old. Samamtha is just about there...

I then reminded myself where Samantha had started 3 years ago. A young lady entering 6th grade, Samantha began self-administering (by choice) daily injections at the age of 11. Month after month, her body changed in size. As her body grew muscle and bone at a rapid pace, she could not fit in her clothes from month to month. Her shoe size grew so quickly that I didn’t buy her more than 2 pairs of shoes at a time. How could I be disappointed, Samantha’s results were beyond my expectations, or were they? Many emotions flooded my mind within moments.

Samamtha, her father, and I gave Samantha a precious gift: UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.
- We still do and always will.
- We watched Samantha take PRIDE in herself and become her own advocate.
- We witnessed Samantha grow in height and inner STRENGTH AND PERSEVERENCE..
- We all FOUGHT the good fight of NEVER GIVING UP. There have been times when Samantha has asked when we thought she would stop taking  her medication; however, she always knew taking on this challenge was a long road and she was an integral part of the decisions we made as a family each step of the way.

Is it really over? No one knows. Samantha will continue taking her medication for the next few months; however we all agree that by the end of 2018 she will have reached her final destination of this road.

 Samantha started this blog to raise awareness of GHD (growth hormone deficiency) so other children in a similar circumstance to her would not feel as if they were the only ones in the world struggling with the very same issues. As she has traveled through this journey, I hope she has helped others feel they aren’t walking in darkness as Samantha felt when she first began Growth Hormone Therapy.

Life is a journey, not a destination. There are many more roads to come for Miss Seriously Samantha.  She has made such an impact upon the lives of those she touches. I’m so excited to see what the future holds for her. I am eternally grateful for Samantha’s gifts she has given to our family.

My daughter has helped me become a better person. She has taught me lessons I never thought I would learn.

Writing again with upcoming updates

Thank you to everyone who has read Samantha’s blog. She is truly an inspiration in countess ways and she will be so happy to know she still has readers all over the world! Stay tuned for updates on:
-slowing down in growth
- puberty isn’t affected by HGH
- becoming tired of taking daily injections for years and how Samantha has been “powering through it!”
- body image and changes with HGH and the teen years (it’s not easy and Samantha has had the most positive attitude and better than I could have imagined!
- Samantha’s questions about stopping HGH and her decision to continue until she stops growing

AND

Before and current photos which are absolutely amazing!

Please post a comment or question; Samantha would love to hear from you!

Sincerely,
Seriously Samantha’s Mom

Preparing for my Bat Mitzvah

 On Saturday I will be having my Bat Mitzvah.

I feel really nervous because I really don't want to mess up in front of all my friends and family.   I have a fear that everyone will laugh at me when I began to sing the prayers.  I have a pretty good voice  however everybody has their own opinion of what sounds nice to them.  What if no one shows up at the temple?  The show must go on!

 I feel that my mother is always hovering over me  asking me questions and I just want to be myself and do what I feel is right.  Why doesn't she trust me and my decisions?  I am only 13 and maybe there are some things I need to learn.  I hardly know everything, and that's why I don't have Snapchat,    I only have Instagram.

 I feel that by having my bat mitzvah I will have more freedom  to do the things I want to do  instead of my mom watching me every second of the day.  Well she doesn't watch me every single second of the day because she doesn't go to school with me or sit in my room all night when I do my homework or sleep in my room which is probably a very good thing.  I must admit, I might be overreacting.

 I hope that all my stress for my Bat Mitzvah will be gone by the time Saturday comes and I will show everyone what Seriously Samantha can do!

Wish me luck!

What Color Should I Choose?

There are so many needles in this world... some hurt and some don't.

For me, there are colored needles: purple, pink and yellow I started off with yellow-packaged needles when I first started my growth hormone shots. When I was almost finished with the first batch of my shots, purple needles were delivered.

OMG! The purple needle-size hurt so much.  They were too thick and long - they scared me!  I begged my mom to ask the prescription company to send the yellow-packaged needles, which did happen thank goodness.  I used these needles for a long time.

Just last month, pink needles arrived. When I opened my package of supplies which were delivered I gasped - ANOTHER COLOR?  Who knew needles came in so many colors!  These needles looked twice the length as the yellow and the purple ones.  I must say, at first I was really nervous and sick to my stomach thinking of how to take my shot with these new needles. I put the needle in my body for the first time and I was surprised; it didn't hurt at all!

Now, the needles I was once so afraid of are my favorite needles. Yesterday my newest needles were delivered and they're yellow (which are my second favorite needles).

I need to decide whether to use the yellow or the purple ones; what should I do???